I would like to share with you feelings,
emotions and stories that will blow your mind.
Enjoy.

Sometimes I wished that I could have a different life. Right now I feel like everything is out of control. I am feeling 10 million different feelings at a time. I hate this wall that I have built up with the rest of society. I am always anxious, I can't trust people easily, I have problems opening up to anyone, I am frighten of being the center of attention or put on the spot. I am in the state of confusion about everything that is happening to me. I feel that no one is understanding me. Not even my friends or my mum. Its soo frustrating at some times in my life. I am veeeeeeeeery shy, and I had to do sort of a presentation in front of 24 people. I just couldn't do it. No one understood me. Everyone thought i was a lazy drama queen. But its really not the case. At least i got the courage to talk to the teacher and sort things out. This presentation had putted me waaaaaaaaaaaay back than i have ever expected. The other thing is that i was very close to my friends. During summer we used to go out and shop. And i am the type of person that likes being with other people and hates being alone. And these last few days i am feeling this a lot. I think that it was such a big thing for me that i didn't come with them - in the same class. I am trying to get over it and I can't wait for the Christmas holidays to begin. This reason also made me hate school so bad. Like every time i wake up i say to myself i don't want to go to school. I hate being alone with bunch of people i don't know. Its hard to understand my situation. And i hope this don't hurt me anymore.

Fourteen candles on the [fifteen th]
February, I [heart] him, blogging,
gossip, boys,
going out, good movies &++ drawing.